Big scary things always come from small laughable things. :(

I had a fight with my boyfriend again, because of stupid Narutemate Accel.

It really frustrates me because it started from small thing.

Some things are better left I said, but he told me that I was making an ass out of him. You see, i have a stupid crush on this guy, and we kinda fought. I was feeling really bad, and I don't need to tell him, right? He's jealous with this crush-guy... but I love him. More than he ever knows or will ever know.

And then the next day, I was playing naruto early morning. I thought I was playing with Ramil, but he actually grabbed the controller from Ramil and played himself. He was saying things, and I really really felt so insulted. Naturally, I got pissed off I was swearing. Well, in the end, we had a fight.

How could we fight over such a small thing? I think I should really talk to him. It's our sem break, and 6 days with out talking to each other? this isn't right. I hope I can find a way to talk to him, settle things once and for all.

i don't want to lose him. i'm not ready yet.

Anna Tsuchiya I LOVE YOU NAO

gawd this song is AMAZING. I really recommend you guys listen to it...

Anna Tsuchiya - Forever

and yes, it's ENGLISH. :D

I really am a shopoholic//Masskara with Jay

I realized that i was a real shopaholic after I borrowed 400 cash from the payments for the tickets from our school raffle. (I swear I WILL pay it back. promise!)
I bought new pair of boots! But then I'm ba-on sa utang again. Oh gawd. I have to pay the fees for our JS Camp, and then the 400 hundred for the tickets. Jeezus. And I still have to get that scarf! AND THAT SHIRT!! AND THAT COWBOY HAT!! AND THAT BOW TIE!! Why do I have to be a shopaholic?! Is this some kind of CURSE?!

Anyway, Jay and I enjoyed the festivities of the city, which was rare for us. We walked from mall to mall and went window shopping. :D Man. Then we rode carnival rides.. kung sa ilonggo pa, peryahan bala haw. XD... we rode the octopus and the Ferris Wheel, which was uber scary. haha. (IT WAS SHAKING, MAN!! we went home at seven thirty.. and that was my greatest masskara to date. :)

Watching Avatar at the moment. Ta-ta!

Nothingness

In times like these when I want to hold you
and feel the warmth of your arms
My heart flutters like the wings of a butterfly
when bathed under the light of your eyes.

Hold me close to you, closer, tighter
Never let me go.
Dig deeper into me, deeper, farther
Never let me go.

Ah, it must be your lips,
dancing like the wind on my skin
Must it be the sound of your voice in my ear?
As our tongues intertwine,
and our bodies collide,
Everything fades into nothingness.

Your fingers caress every part of me,
making my heart ache with your love.
Show me your love, gentler, faster...
Never let me go.

No, it must be the scent of your hair,
the quiet moans that escape your lips.
The static you send down my spine.
As the night turns to dawn,
and our bodies collide,
Everything else fades into nothingness.



Yeah. It's lyrics to a song. And yes, I composed that myself. I'd be really happy if someone could make a tune for it. I'm aiming for the Anna Tsuchiya type, rock ballad... ya know. :)

I had fuuuuuuuun <3

It was Patrick's, my boyfriend Kemuel's best friend, birthday and we had some fun. lol. First I went to school to submit our Economics project. I hung around in school for a while and waited for Kemuel to arrive (I was so fortunate Malcolm was there.. he bought me ice cream. X3) ..then both of us went to Patrick's house to go and fetch him.. when we were about to leave, (we were waiting for the rain to stop) but God is just so good to make Ostin (the guy with the car), Ralph and Jay to arrive just in time! XD

Of course we went with them, to watch their badminton competition (which was totally out of plan).. before their match, we went to a nearby restaurant to eat (all that was left of my money was six pesos hahaha).. then, we went back to the badminton court, and watched Jay's game (Ostin was in his jersey, but he didn't have a game. lol) before the game even started, my boyfriend and Patrick left because of boredom.

After Jay's game, the two of us went to the mall (we went after Patrick and Kemuel) and watched the guys shoot some zombies in the arcade... after that, we watched the Grudge 3 WHICH TOTALLY SUCKED. Ostin was complaining that we should've watched G-force instead, (Patrick would have enjoyed that. he loves cute things.) but well, after watching the movie, I said that he couldn't do anything anymore because what's done is already done.

After the movie, Ostin dropped us at a one-stop 24-hour conbi (short for 'convenience store') and went home... Kemuel went ahead, (he has a VERY early curfew haha.. earlier than mine) And Jay, Patrick and me stayed at the conbi. Jay convinced (more like BRIBED haha.. he bought Patrick a large bag of chips) Patrick and I to stay and wait for his parents with him... well, we did. Then Jay started carving stuff on the conbi's cafe's tables.. said he fells old because the conbi was playing 80's music (and I was singing along to Madonna's 'Borderline') and that, well, we probably wouldn't be doing this in college anymore.

It might sound boring to you, but when I'm with my wacky friends, nothing ever seems so dull. Even the smallest and simplest things become funny when I'm with them. :)

I'll miss them like hell, man. I really, really will.

I WANT THIS DRESS. NAO.

OKAY. I AM DEFINITELY GOING TO SEW MYSELF THIS DRESS. I AM GOING TO FRIGGIN TEACH MYSELF TO SEW. BLAAAAAAAAARG.

Hi there.

I'll be making a new blog about my story. I dunno what the title is yet, but it's some sort of a love story of.. some sort. hahah.

It's about Aoki and Kisuke, two people who are so different but share almost the same story and actually do fall in love... well, I hope it's not going to be cliched... like all my other stories. lol. :D

please support. :)